Having a Rough Time

Ok, it has been a rough few days here and this is why:
http://www.wlwt.com/news/17286489/detail.html
This family goes to our church. While I was not friends with the mom I knew who she was. I work in the nursery and neither of her children were/are in the class I volunteer in but all the classes are next to each other, in the same hallway. When I looked up their photo in the directory it turns out they were family that went before us in line the day we had our directory pictures made at the church. I am just upset beyond words. I have such mixed feelings of anger and overwhelming sorrow for how the parents must feel, especially the mom. I seriously almost skipped church on Sunday b/c I knew it would be mentioned in the sermon. It was. And also mentioned was the fact that the day before this tragedy occured, another family in our congragation suffered a loss. A family lost their mom to breast cancer. She leaves behind a husband and five children. I was cut to the core as I sat there and listened to the news. Our poor pastor couldn't even make it through the sermon without choking up, and we were at 1st service. I can only imagine how rough second service must have been for him. I can't really call anyone and talk through my emotions because I don't want the kids to listen in and I know they will. It was hard enough today to explain why the woman on the morning news was broadcasting from our church parking lot - they recognized it immediatley. And then I forgot about it and drove past the church when we went to run errands and they saw all the cars there for the funeral and two live news crews. All I have told them is that a baby died and everyone is very sad and the funeral was today. They do not know how or why the baby died and I intend to do my best to keep it that way.

If you are reading and if you are of the praying nature. Please pray first for the families that are navigating their way through this painful time. And then, if you could, tack on a small prayer for me and the others that are trying to understand it all, I'd appreciate it.